If you think my hands are Full , You should see my Heart!

Today has just been one of those days that I am just constantly checking the clock anxiously waiting for bed time to arrive. Brad is working late and Roan would not nap , only cry unless i read him the same book over and over about 100 times . Meanwhile i have a 6 week old that wants to be attached to me all day! As I now have my boys down to sleep , i was picking up the 800 crayon pieces all over my floor ,  I couldn't help but break down in tears! And not because my hands are full , but because my heart is!  How lucky am I that I have 2 Healthy , happy , beautiful boys ! How lucky am I to have the luxury to stay home with them everyday! How lucky am I to have a clean and safe home to raise them in! How Lucky am I to have a husband who loves them as much as I do! Luck Isn't quite the word tho
, I truly am blessed! In the middle of the night , while i am up feeding i often look back at photos on my Facebook of before i was married , All the fun times i had with friends playing sports , camping , traveling , keeping the roads hot between lethbridge , raymond and cardston. It always gives me entertainment and good memories of how much Fun i used to have! I really did have ALot of fun! Sometimes i think Changing diapers all day , cleaning up puke constantly and all the sleepless nights  I have  due to the fact of

having 2 babies in 1 year isn't as much fun. But what i have come to learn is that there is a difference between Fun and Happiness. I may not do all of those super fun things all the time like  i used to. But i have never been happier in my entire life! The joy and love i feel daily from my children is indescribable. The fact that heavenly father has entrusted me with these 2 perfect children gives me a sense of appreciation like none other. I am always staring at them thinking , "i cant believe your mine"!  And i know my husband is plenty tired of me asking him " can u believe we have 2 kids?" I am always in Awe of how blessed i am to have children! I remember back when i first found out i was Pregnant again , while my first child was only 4 months old. I remember feeling shocked and definitely scared . I now cant imagine my life any other way! It's Crazy to me how life just works out! As my days seem soo long , my weeks and months are flying by, And i cant express how grateful i am to spend every one of them being a mother! I truly have found Joy in my journey!  How BLESSED am I to be Mother?!!?!! So to those of you who are always asking , Yes my hands are full! But you should see my Heart!