If you think my hands are Full , You should see my Heart!

Today has just been one of those days that I am just constantly checking the clock anxiously waiting for bed time to arrive. Brad is working late and Roan would not nap , only cry unless i read him the same book over and over about 100 times . Meanwhile i have a 6 week old that wants to be attached to me all day! As I now have my boys down to sleep , i was picking up the 800 crayon pieces all over my floor ,  I couldn't help but break down in tears! And not because my hands are full , but because my heart is!  How lucky am I that I have 2 Healthy , happy , beautiful boys ! How lucky am I to have the luxury to stay home with them everyday! How lucky am I to have a clean and safe home to raise them in! How Lucky am I to have a husband who loves them as much as I do! Luck Isn't quite the word tho
, I truly am blessed! In the middle of the night , while i am up feeding i often look back at photos on my Facebook of before i was married , All the fun times i had with friends playing sports , camping , traveling , keeping the roads hot between lethbridge , raymond and cardston. It always gives me entertainment and good memories of how much Fun i used to have! I really did have ALot of fun! Sometimes i think Changing diapers all day , cleaning up puke constantly and all the sleepless nights  I have  due to the fact of

having 2 babies in 1 year isn't as much fun. But what i have come to learn is that there is a difference between Fun and Happiness. I may not do all of those super fun things all the time like  i used to. But i have never been happier in my entire life! The joy and love i feel daily from my children is indescribable. The fact that heavenly father has entrusted me with these 2 perfect children gives me a sense of appreciation like none other. I am always staring at them thinking , "i cant believe your mine"!  And i know my husband is plenty tired of me asking him " can u believe we have 2 kids?" I am always in Awe of how blessed i am to have children! I remember back when i first found out i was Pregnant again , while my first child was only 4 months old. I remember feeling shocked and definitely scared . I now cant imagine my life any other way! It's Crazy to me how life just works out! As my days seem soo long , my weeks and months are flying by, And i cant express how grateful i am to spend every one of them being a mother! I truly have found Joy in my journey!  How BLESSED am I to be Mother?!!?!! So to those of you who are always asking , Yes my hands are full! But you should see my Heart!

Thanksgiving

 Since Canadian Thanksgiving has just passed and American Thanksgiving is  coming up. I have been doing a lot of thinking about what I am thankful for. Today  I have had one of those emotional “mom” days  and my heart has been very full. I guess I feel like I just have to express somehow all that  I am thankful for!I feel overwhelmed with all the good in my life. ,I am thankful for my amazing friends

 I have had so many fun spontaneous and wild moments with, but also the ones that have been there for me at my darkest times as well. At all ages of my life my friends have brought much happiness to me. I have been blessed with an Amazing family,

 I have 2 brothers and 2 sisters that I wouldn’t trade in for anyone! They have truly been the greatest examples to me in my life.

 I am grateful for wonderful parents, who even though 14 years ago chose not to spend the rest of this life together, they have never let our family fall apart, they have been selfless and swallowed there pride many times I’m sure to be able to spend many Christmases  , birthdays , family dinners and vacations together , so that us as children always had all our family together. I don’t know any parents that still spend every Christmas together after 14 years of being divorced. I am Thankful for the 12 beautiful nephews and nieces I have and the sweet spirits that they are , and the many opportunities’ that they have giving  me to help prepare me for motherhood. 

I am grateful for a strong , loyal , hard working and motivated  best friend and husband , who isn’t a perfect person but he is perfect for me!

 My greatest joy in all my life has come over these past 3 months! I have been blessed with a beautiful, strong and healthy baby . Being a mother is hands down my greatest accomplishment,  I have never felt so much gratitude, happiness and love as I have these past months. 

I know I am not deserving of this wonderful life I have been giving , But I am SO Grateful for it! I am especially grateful to my Heavenly Father and my Savior for all of these blessing and for giving me the opportunity to have them Forever!

Christmas

Well this was the year to Spend Christmas with the Wagner Side . It was Great we went to Arizona and spent the holiday at Shelo's house which had just enough room for all 22 of us! We all enjoyed the Grand canyon Train ride ( polar express ) , Monopoly deal , the waterslides , rock climbing , presents , Shelos nativity and of course all the food! After that Brad and I headed off to vegas for a couple of days and ended the holidays on the ski hill in Ogden. It was a busy 3 weeks but alot of fun , We are so blessed ! We have the greatest Family's any couple could ever ask for!!!!

Better then the Best

Well we are here and settled in Utah , Brad has changed his major and is now in Pre Med. We live in a ghetto apartment on campus , but we are loving it! Life could not getting any better for us. We are continually blessed !!! Our weekdays consist of Brad in school and homework , Our weekends have mostly been spent at Jadons footballs games in provo! this next weekend we are off to Arizona to visit Shelo , Brad and Nate are flying to Dallas to see Jadons Game. They are ecstatic for that.

New begining

Well we are finally married! We bought a house in Magrath and love our new home. I work at my mothers new salon Studio 1 West and Brad is currently working for the town. Come september we are moving to ogden Utah where Brad will start his schooling in Engineering! we are soo exited for a new adventure. Next week we are off to California to visit Brads mission! and my bestie Sam!!!!!!! Cant Wait to get out of the snow here!